The Conversation That Changed My Life Four Years Ago

You know when you hear a certain song and memories of a specific moment come flooding back?

That is what happens when I hear THIS song.

Let me take you back to where I was over four years ago. I was living in Seattle. I was working at Seattle Pacific University in the athletic department. As much as I loved my job, I knew God was preparing me for a change. I just didn’t know what or where. I also knew that at this time my love for Jesus was growing.

On this night over four years ago, my sister came up to go to the Chris Tomlin concert with me at the Key arena. Chris Tomlin played THIS song that night and I got to worship with my sister and thousands of other people.

But that is not what I remember the most.

What I remember the most from that night was the conversation after the concert with my sister. We were in the Seattle Pacific parking lot, and for over two hours we chatted, we cried and we prayed.

I told her how my heart was wrestling with change and how I felt God preparing me for something different. I shared my desire for ministry and my ache to bring faith, hope and love to children with pediatric cancer and their family. I remember crying as I told her how falling in love with Jesus was scary but I also has the desire to share it with others, especially women, but I didn’t know the platform I was to use.

She shared with me her heart for children and her growing family. She just had her little boy Jace at the time, and her passion as a mother was evident. She cried over her ache to protect children in her community and the longing to fight for injustice.

It was a moment and conversation I will never forget and as I listen to each verse of THIS song, I cry not because of what was but because what God has done since then and continues to do.

One year after that conversation, God led me to Arizona (Hello, BIG change!). He guided me to a church that has helped me grow more in love with Jesus, deepen my faith and grow my confidence for ministry, especially women’s ministry.

My sister now has two biological sons and one baby in foster care that we pray soon will be apart of the family. She brings awareness to the challenges of foster care in Washington state and fights daily to protect children in her community.

Even through unknown paths and unexpected turns, we both are living out the exact conversation we had over four years ago. That night God was whispering to us what He had planned.

Two reasons why this conversations has changed my life:

1) This conversation is a reminder that God plants desires, longings and passion in our hearts that He plans to fulfill! He doesn’t place those on our hearts to taunt us, but wants us to step forward and into the plans He has already prepared for us.

“For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.” Ephesians 2:10

2) We serve a Sovereign God who knows our hopes, our dreams and our needs from beginning to end. The Bible says if we delight in the Lord, He will give us the desires of our hearts (Psalm 37:4). When we surrender to God’s reality for our life, we allow His perfect, exciting and beautiful dreams to become our dreams. Then one day (or four years later) we wake up and realize that we are right in the middle of God’s Will for our lives.

We must not be afraid to allow God’s creativity to saturate our hearts and minds. We must not be afraid to dream. Listen to what He is whispering. He is most likely telling you He has plan and it will be better than you can imagine. He is Sovereign. Let’s trust Him.

“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us.” Ephesians 3:20 

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